my first ever blog after all of...

the kitty girls...
maybe new but it conquers..
just like me!

i'm so glad that i've finally post a formal blog post...
after all, i have manage to keep my sanity intact...
even after the things i have surpassed...
and even the things that will happen still...
i think i will not make it this far without my friends...
my kitty girls...
my 4killion family...
everyone that made me stronger and tougher than before...
hope that my friends grow bigger in size and still be the best gals in town!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

my can't-think-straight craze

"From the suburban houses of England to the palaces of Jordan, chance will bring two people together. If love is in the air & love is all around then accidents are bound to happen..."

this is the movie i've been waiting for!
a movie that tells a story about lesbians!
every piece of the movie made me goosebumps!
see the trailer!
hope you'll enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lznSuKO_D4U

Tala, a London-based Jordanian of Palestinian origin prepares for an elaborate wedding with her Jordanian fiance, when she encounters Leyla, a young British Indian woman who is dating her best friend Ali. Spirited Christian Tala and shy Muslim Leyla could not be more different from each other but the attraction is immediate. Tala's feisty nature provokes Leyla out of her shell and soon both women reveal their feelings for each other. But Tala is not ready to accept the implications of the choice her heart has made and escapes back to Jordan where her chain-smoking high-brow mother finishes preparations for an ostentatious wedding. As family members descend and the wedding day approaches, simmering family tensions come to boiling point and the pressure mounts for Tala to be true to herself. Meanwhile heartbroken Leyla relishes her newly found sense of identity and self-respect and moves on with her new life--much to the shock of her tradition-loving Indian parents. Single again, Tala flies back to London--but it will take more than just a date set up by Ali and Leyla's sister Zara to win Leyla back.

antagal na...kanta uli!

Your guardian angel

When i see your smile
Tears run down my face i cant replace
And now that im stronger ive figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my sou
lAnd i know ill find deep inside me i can be the one

I will never let you fall
Ill stand up with you forever
Ill be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Its ok. its ok. its ok.

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you ill be the one

I will never let you fall
Ill stand up with you forever
Ill be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz youre my, youre my, my true love, my whole heart
Please dont throw that away
Cuz im here for you
Please dont walk away,
Please tell me youll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And i know ill be ok
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
Ill stand up with you forever
Ill be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

A favor house atlantic

Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could
Recall the moments that once have
Retract the footsteps that brought us to this favor
I wouldn't ask this of you

Good eye, sniper
Here i'll shoot, you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all

Run quick, they're behind us
Didn't think we'd ever make it
This close to safety in one piece
Now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe
Save us from sleep and what we are

Good eye, sniper
Now i shoot, you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all

Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.

The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know

Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.

Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.

Gosh, I've been out for a month!

Sh*t...
ang tagal ko na palang wala...
maraming nangyari...
hiwalay na kami ni alfie...
may textmate akong boyfriend...
may dalawa akong manliligaw pero hindi na nila ako pinapansin...
maraming umaaway sa akin...
member na ako ng sfc...
nakakain na ako ng dila sa korea...
mageexam na ko next week...
hai...
tsaka na yung details, hapit na ako.
=)
ps: good luck sa simbang gabi mamaya!

rock-rockan na

Misery business

I'm in the business of misery,
let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass
it's ticking like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out...

When I thought he was mine,
she caught him by the mouth
I waited eight long months
She finally set him freeI told him
I couldn't lie, he was the only one
for me
Two weeks we had caught on fire
She's got it out for me,
but I wear the biggest smile

Whoa... I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feel so good'
Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so... It just feels so good

Second chances they don't never matter,
people never changeOnce a whore, you're nothing more,
I'm sorry that'll never changeAnd about forgiveness,
we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I passed up, now look this way!

Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who
They want it what they like, it's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!
Whoa... I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would'
Cause God it just feels so... It just feels so good...
I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...
Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now...
Whoa, I never meant brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feel so good'
Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so... It just feels so good

Home
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain
.I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from
.No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
Be careful what you wish for,'
Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,'
Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong
.I don't regret this life I chose for me
.But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

hainaku...

f*ck...
i don't know if im gonna be happy or not...
happy because finally one sem is ove and im going to work...
i also will receive the ched scholarship which i badly need to lessen our expenses...
sad because of my f*cking feelings for my so-called "ex"...
i mean, how can i move on when the reason of my loneliness is also the reason of my happiness?
how can i forget him when his house is the exact opposite to ours?
and how can i possibly fall out of love when i long for his voice, his touch, his smile and his eyes?
damn it...
i feel so awful...
and all i can do is cry and wait...
=(